Can I just explain how true this is? I went to my second day at The Wesley center and it was pretty great!
I walk in and i’m already nervous about knowing people and talking to them. Whether they will be accepting of my hellos or not. So I end up awkwardly standing by the door and waiting to write a name tag for myself. No familiar faces. Just a crowd of strangers.
I got to walk down the stairs and at the third to last step, I slip and fall on my behind. I have no choice but to laugh because I am the most clumsy person known to man. The moment i open my eyes, a high school friend’s boyfriend is helping me up. No one laughed, he made sure i was alright, but i was still embarassed beyond belief.
Through dinner, i awkwardly sit there around people i dont know and stare at my phone, praying for either the confidence to talk to someone or a text message to save my life. Soon enough i get to talking to the people around me and everyone starts to lighten up. We go outside and play an intense competition of rock/paper/scissors.
After we did praise and worship and split into our groups. I desperately clinged to my purse all night, but i finally put it down. As the leader asked questions, one question struck a cord. The question was:
“What would you like the group to pray about for you?”
Then she started with me and i felt like i had the confidence to say my problem. I told them about my friends who surround themselves with drugs, parties, sex, and alcohol. I told them how i didnt want that for myself and started moving towards God and now they dont speak to me. So I came into this semester with absolutely no friends.
That moment, i guess, showed that i had more feeling besides scared crap-less. People started to give me advice about being more involved at The Wesley and even though they stopped talking, it doesnt hurt to live this new life in order to show them that im strong and we can still be friends.
After that everything went a lot better. We played signs and people actually said goodbye to me this time.
This picture/quote represented tonight well. The devil knew i was vulnerable and made me slip down those stairs but God caught me. I promised God that no matter what happened, or how awkward i felt, i was never gonna give up on him or fitting in at this youth ministry. He never gave up on me so ill never give up on him.