Today I was starring at my hair in the light after I deep conditioned it and noticed some split ends. It sucks because ive been working on it and keeping it healthy but Tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays I put so much heat on it just trying to be pretty. I told my mother that today is the day I stop putting heat on my heat. Its unhealthy and killing it. Ive been trying really hard to grow it out. I also decided to stop putting makeup on for the next 7 days as well. By makeup, I mean heavy makeup like foundation, primer, concealer, powder, bronzer, blush, highlighter, liner, shadow, primer, etc. I use a lot of stuff. I started using lots of makeup when I was being myself and not concerned with anyone’s opinion. Then my friend’s mom said that she thought I was a lesbian and then proceeded it with how beautiful and skinny the rest of his female friends were and how they all had boyfriends. Needless to say, she made me feel like I was ugly and fat and no guy would want me because I was being myself.
After that, I purchased every type of makeup i could get my hands on and now my face is like 85% perfection. But I spend a good hour preparing for when I have to be around men and girls prettier and sexier than me. Lately, I havent been having fun doing makeup and my face has been greasy and theirs makeup on all my sheets. Its annoying. Plus, I used to crush on this guy and found he’s gay so thats a thing. Ha
Im also doing this challenge to prove my worth. I dont feel like I should have to wear a bunch of makeup to get someone to like me. Plus, I have to love myself in order for someone to love me.